My Last Night


So many people are lost and hurting. The ministry we used to be a part of was full of youth who struggle with major issues on a daily basis. I’ve talked to many of them who have faced suicide at one point or another. Like everyone else on this planet, they need love. They don’t need to be judged for what they’ve done in the past. They need to know who they are in Christ. I wrote another song this morning as I sat here thinking about that.

 

My Last Night
Copyright 2014 Chris Martin

(verse one)

Standing at the edge of silence, time is no longer my friend
In this moment, I have to decide, no one will hurt me again
The tears stream down, I tremble in the shadow of my fear
I cried out to You, no reply, thought You said You were always here

Candlelight flickers in the darkness, cold steel pressed against my skin
A note on the table, reasons why, I can’t be hurt again
You won’t understand, might force a smile through the tears
But no one will ever know, what you did to me all these years

(chorus)

This is my last night
I give up the fight
I can’t take this pain anymore
Time to step through the open door

I’m so alone, I need to be strong
I’ve carried this burden for way too long
Does darkness await, or will it be light
No matter what, this is my last night

This is my last night

(verse two)

Sitting at the edge of my bed, time is my only friend
In this moment, I have to decide, I want to let you in
The tears stream down, I tremble, but not in fear
I cried out to You, the answer came, I feel You here

Candlelight flickers in the darkness, cold steel cast to the floor
A note in the trash, I have no reason to doubt You anymore
You’re the only one Who understands, I smile through the tears
Soon everyone will know, You’ve been calling to me all these years

(chorus)

This is my last night
I don’t have to fight
I won’t carry this pain anymore
On bended knee, I step through Your open door

I’m never alone, You make me strong
I’ve carried this burden for way too long
The darkness is gone, I now walk in the light
No matter what, this is my last night

This is my last night

Story


I usually post on Mondays, but wanted to share this. Being around One7 for the last two years, I’ve seen, and heard about, a great amount of pain and heartbreak. The kids we work with are facing challenges every day, in school and at home. Something I always say is that everyone has a story. It’s true. Everyone does, and we should take the time to listen. I wrote this song entitled Story, with those thoughts in mind.

Story
Copyright 2012 Chris Martin

(verse one)

There she sits all alone, a smile upon her face
The girl in black, the rings and tats
In this world, she's so out of place

The other kids walk by, without a second glance
They can't see that she's dying inside
In this world, she just wants a chance

(chorus)

She wants to tell her story
To anyone who will listen
She wants to share her heart
And find the love that she's been missin'

All it takes is just a moment
To step into someone else's life
Everyone has a story
Let's make sure it doesn't end tonight

(verse two)

On the edge of heartbreak, the pain is always real
Even though there are no tears
The smile doesn't show what she feels

Don't be the one that walks by, without a second glance
You can see that she's dying inside
Be the one who gives her a chance

(repeat chorus)

(bridge)

A broken home, her Daddy left last week
She can't wipe away the tear stains on her cheek
She has nowhere to turn, no hope in sight
Be the answer to her prayers tonight

(repeat chorus)

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Have a blessed day,

Chris